Do you remember?

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What do you remember from the earliest days? I remember being sad for my big brother because the dog died. I don’t remember the dog, but I was so sad for my bro because he was crying and hurting over this loss. I was little kindergartener leaning against the door frame. Another memory was when my younger brother was burned badly from the grease in an electric frying pan he pulled off the counter. I don’t remember that part of the trauma, but I remember that I was waiting in a car late that evening, watching and looking up to the upper levels of the hospital windows wishing to see my family. Then I remember seeing someone female I thought using an ironing board to iron. Okay, so was I  really at the hospital? I don’t know that either, but my mind always remembers it around that incident. There are other memories, but earlier ones are more sketchy than that.

What about school age? Here is one for you. My dad was a pipeline welder and we moved with the pipeline, so I did not go to kindergarten because of these moves and such was the time. I moved 41 times before my 7th grade year.  So, one time, when we had settled back next door to my granny’s house for the cold weather, I went to my “first” day of 1st grade. The other students had been there for days, but this was my “first day” ever in an institution of education. The youngsters were seated and quiet as they used pencils to mark papers. As I sat down I looked around for some visual clues as to what I was supposed to do. The teacher, Mrs. Worsham, walked by and hit my hand with a fly swatter and told me to “quit cheating.” Again, I repeat, this was in first grade, on my first day of school ever in my short life, yelled at and hit and told to quit cheating which I did not even know how to do. Thus my introduction to education.

Jump forward about 50 years. Now, I rarely look back unless my spirit taps me on the shoulder and prompts me to remember. This month I was tapped…on the shoulder and pointed in the direction to pay attention. These are not easy tasks but I try to obey. This one knocked the wind out of me. As happens on FB from time to time, not often, but once in a while I am tagged in a pic from long ago. The pics that surfaced were from a summer Bible campaign in the NE with select college students from surrounding sister colleges. I had not thought of these people for some time. I experienced lasting lessons from a couple of the trips I had taken along the NE coast which shaped who I am today. Yet, many of the people and faces I had forgotten. As I looked through the memories chronicled there I started remembering. Some names came to me, and I connected soulfully again to those whose smiles were infectious. I couldn’t resist the pull to reach out to those easy to locate and the ones who made me laugh. So far I have only heard back from one. That is fine. I obeyed the tap. The outcome is not mine. The action to do as I was led is. I look forward to the day some of the timing for this makes sense. But if that day does not happen on this side I will continue to act on the prompts. I believe that I am here to do that.

What do we do with memory, some great, some good, some we long to never be prompted to revisit? I personally live in the moment, but when the brain waves spark with memory I look to it to give thanks even in the unknown surrounding it. I lean into the stimuli behind it, accept the rush of sentiment, and try to process the emotions escorting it. I’m not sure if the frequency of these recurring memories are a part of the aging process or because they enlighten and move me to more compassion towards others. I would like to think there is a reason, but, again, I’m not privy to the scope of that particular info from the spiritual realm.

Today I will give thanks for the flood of beautiful memories, faces, places, and learning that took place for my good. I wish I could “replay” and “redo” as in a computer game. I would be more kind and understanding of all the players including myself. I would say “Thank you” more, and “God bless you!” I would tell people they were fine right where they were and perfect in God’s eyes. I would tell them forgiveness is there’s to accept. I would see them as a first love sees with wonder and awe into the depths of the precious soul directly across from them. The old photo’s captured exact moments that reminded me to cherish the present much more. Thus, maybe, the tap on my shoulder to revisit the pics as I did and see then, where I offered people and those times my service, I now will do so with much more awe and adoration for the moment at hand. I do wish I had told those across from me then how special they were. But, there are no “do-overs.” There are, however, new opportunities in the present to show more love for those who sit across from me.

Memories serve us even if we do not revisit them much. They will guide us to be better if we allow them. What do you remember? I remembered love so I end with this.

1 Corinthians 13:13

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

 

 

 

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What Color is Creativity?

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What is your passion? What creeps up in your thoughts everyday? I don’t mean the ego that reminds you of yours and others unsightly flaws or that picks your spouse/family apart. Or the negativity of any situation that plagues you. I mean, what when the thought occurs, gives you a moment of pleasure? A slight smile? The thought or memory that sparks imagination. What is it that even when days go by it comes back up in a flash and other creative flow follows? What is it? What is that one thing or two or three that fuels you with energy when you allow your mind to faintly wonder, or hope, or plan, or remind, or muse?

I personally think that is where spirit lives within us. The still small voice that hints and reminds and tugs at us to set in motion the things that sometimes terrify or gives us a feeling of butterflies. It’s like meeting a lover but without any harming repercussions. Really, if we could shut down the ego’s voice we could heal…I will go out on a limb here and say…the world.

Wow! That is why I love this blog. I wish more peeps could see it. I love to write about walking at the lake. I love to write the stories that pop in my head as my fingers fly. I love to encourage. I love to think and then deliver in type what inspires…mostly me. I reread these posts from time to time and I’m glad that I did.

I am not so unique that I should think no one else would be uplifted by words of encouragement. That is the crazy, wonderful, most insane mystery around how putting ones thoughts out there for God, universe, flow, or energy to allow the winds of change to give it flight.This bible verse comes to mind…

1 Corinthians 3:6 (NIV)

“I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God has been making it grow.”

Isn’t it true. We go out and set tangibles in motion, but the great wisdom of our creator directs the path and so much more of that which is intended for good. If I can avoid allowing my limited linear thinking to stagnate my life flow of creativity, there is so much to do and experience. It is usually in movement though. Putting into action. Not out of being busy for busy sake, but taking deliberate steps to deliver the idea that surprises you. No worries about the exact final picture, but just begin the process. It will take shape or lead to the next step. Have faith that the idea came from wonderful grace filled expansive space. God gives. We just have to be the conduit!

So what about the title for this post? What color is creativity? What modality will creativity take for you? My mom makes the best fried chicken and my dad loves it so much! She takes great delight in making it for him. So her creativity was in making the best fried chicken among other great dishes for which she will be remembered. She would never call herself an artist, but she is one of the most creative souls without knowing it. The label of creator is not necessary. We are all given the ability to create. What color we use is up to us.

Today my color of creativity is pink just because. Tomorrow maybe brown, blue, green… I plan on getting back to the Walk and Talk Time. I’ve been away for a short time. Now I am stronger and will get back at it! I will enjoy the colors of creativity. How about you? What color is yours?